"If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end: if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth - only wishful thinking and despair.” - C.S. Lewis
You r at the stage where you can see that any fear about Self doing or not doing , achieving or not achieving blabla is blocking permanent state of God connection. Play with puppies, have babies , doodle…simple shit is the way out of the intellectual bubble of ‘ I need to produce Art, be smart, achieve my souls life goals, enlightenment etc etc ..endless rollercoaster of ego re-creation. Wu Wei to all that and catch self obsessing about self .. giving up the ‘search’ is a way through you know ..
"self obsessing about self" - Kierkegaard called it the self straining in despair both against being itself and to be itself. All obsessions until resting in faith, in presence, in being. Big Yes to everything that requires pure presence -- babies and puppies, nature, and flow states.
I hear you . But : What do you think is found at the end of such search? Surely you know it’s the same ( puppies , babies, trees, work etc) just minus that ‘Self’ that saw anything is missing in the first place ? So why wait till THE search brings up something ? Why not hack away at the Self anytime you notice it arising ? If scary: Listening to all the Adyashanti talks on YouTube membership might help .
So much lovely writing in this one. Thanks for sharing (as always).
What’s most interesting to me at this moment, is the different paths we seem to have encountered. I was in a wilderness before I really had the “inward tunneling” and kind of integration. I wonder if that allowed me to come to acceptance in a more “big bang” fashion, whereas you explored more before you found that surrender. Perhaps I’m intuiting what you wrote wrong (or misprocessing my own experience!) and would like to read this again.
At any rate, I hope it’s a great end to the year and thank you for sharing.
I've experienced the journey as 'big bang' moments of revelation/understanding/... followed by periods of going into/returning to the wilderness and struggling to integrate/accept what I've learned. A flow with ups and downs, if you will (or just a winding river).
Big surrender in the depths, little surrender every day.
I think you have found the way, take each day is it comes and do your best on God’s purpose for you and helping others as much as you can along the way.
In my mind because of your writing and your spiritual insights I think you are a very beautiful evolved soul. I look forward to your articles. Thank you.
You r at the stage where you can see that any fear about Self doing or not doing , achieving or not achieving blabla is blocking permanent state of God connection. Play with puppies, have babies , doodle…simple shit is the way out of the intellectual bubble of ‘ I need to produce Art, be smart, achieve my souls life goals, enlightenment etc etc ..endless rollercoaster of ego re-creation. Wu Wei to all that and catch self obsessing about self .. giving up the ‘search’ is a way through you know ..
Yes, thank you for sharing.
"self obsessing about self" - Kierkegaard called it the self straining in despair both against being itself and to be itself. All obsessions until resting in faith, in presence, in being. Big Yes to everything that requires pure presence -- babies and puppies, nature, and flow states.
... And afterward the urge to search returns 🙈
I hear you . But : What do you think is found at the end of such search? Surely you know it’s the same ( puppies , babies, trees, work etc) just minus that ‘Self’ that saw anything is missing in the first place ? So why wait till THE search brings up something ? Why not hack away at the Self anytime you notice it arising ? If scary: Listening to all the Adyashanti talks on YouTube membership might help .
Thank you for sharing your personal experiences and deep insights, it's incredibly helpful.
Thank you. Happy to hear it resonated.
Beautiful piece. Thank you for sharing such deep thoughts and journey
So much lovely writing in this one. Thanks for sharing (as always).
What’s most interesting to me at this moment, is the different paths we seem to have encountered. I was in a wilderness before I really had the “inward tunneling” and kind of integration. I wonder if that allowed me to come to acceptance in a more “big bang” fashion, whereas you explored more before you found that surrender. Perhaps I’m intuiting what you wrote wrong (or misprocessing my own experience!) and would like to read this again.
At any rate, I hope it’s a great end to the year and thank you for sharing.
I've experienced the journey as 'big bang' moments of revelation/understanding/... followed by periods of going into/returning to the wilderness and struggling to integrate/accept what I've learned. A flow with ups and downs, if you will (or just a winding river).
Big surrender in the depths, little surrender every day.
love that, and that articulation very much maps my own winding river. 🙏🏾
I think you have found the way, take each day is it comes and do your best on God’s purpose for you and helping others as much as you can along the way.
Yes, very well put :)
Thank you for this Frederick. Much love.
Thanks, Dave!
In my mind because of your writing and your spiritual insights I think you are a very beautiful evolved soul. I look forward to your articles. Thank you.